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Hi there! Welcome to my corner of the internets. I'm a 26 year old therapist, photographer, and shop owner currently living in Seattle, Washington. My online spaces are educational and lifestyle accounts dedicated to educating, engaging, and empowering women through digital art, home design, and travel.... with a touch of humor and personality sprinkled throughout. Stay a while!

Sunday, September 30, 2018

Europe Trip: Paris - Day 2

Day 2 started off with walking to breakfast at Angelina! Along the way we saw cool street art and a fountain at Place de la Concorde. 


Saturday, September 29, 2018

Europe Trip: Paris - Day 1

Ok, let's get these posts started!

So we started our trip off in Paris, then went to Amsterdam, and then back to Paris to catch our flight home. Our trip started off so good. We flew out of the Salt Lake Airport (don't ask me how much my ticket was because it is PAINFUL after flying out of JFK hahah) and I kid you not: from the time J dropped us off to the time we were sitting and eating McDonald's waiting for our flight to board was *MAYBE* 5 minutes. There were absolutely NO LINES and it was so good! 

Also we saw my mom at the airport? Like she was literally on the same flight as us. How weird huh!!!

Friday, September 28, 2018

09.28.18

Hello hello. I have returned from my trip to Europe! It was really fun. I'll post about it soon.

I never posted these cute couple photos we got taken a few weeks back! One of the perks of living in Utah again is getting to shoot with all the photographers I have been following for years lol. Also it was nice to get some nature-y photos in the Utah mountains that everyone loves so much. Now we can officially say we live here lol.

Anyway, we shot with Brolin Taylor and he is so good! He is such a easy to be with person and SO FUNNY. We were lol-ing at the things he was saying. Anyway, I would highly recommend! And no, this isn't sponsored or anything, I just really liked our experience with him!

I narrowed these down but there are still a lot. I mostly get worried my iCloud and hard drive will fail and the only place I'll have memories is on this blog lol. Anyway, without further ado!





Sunday, September 16, 2018

09.16.2018

Ugh, we had to give talks today. I had THE WORST anxiety this morning omg. Like, my arms and legs felt so weird and I was just so mad to have to giv a talk. Mostly because we've given a talk in EVERY. SINGLE. WARD. we've been in... which has been A LOT since we got married. Also J said yes without asking me so I was also annoyed at that lol. 


When I get nervous I have the weirdest personality shift. The best word J and I think describes it is "whatever". But, anyway, one of my friends wanted to read my talk, so here it is. I used this as more of a guide than read it word for word. But, you get the gist. Gossip Girl references were made, I am also pretty sure at some point I said "hard pass" but it's all a blur. 

Needless to say, this will be the last talk I give for at least 5 years!

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Good morning ladies and gentlemen.
My husband and I moved into the ward a few months ago. To give you a little background on us, we have lived in 4 different wards in the past 3 years and every ward we have lived in has asked us to give a talk…. Making this is my 4thtalk in 3 years… Which you would think would make it easier, but as I wrote this at 10:00pm last night I realized that that is very far from the truth! So, bear with me.
So, to give you a little background on us, we have been married for 5 years, no kids, but we do have a dog child Tucker who I am always very happy to talk about and show pictures of. We have a pretty typical story. We met at BYU our freshman years and got married the following summer. We lived in Provo for a bit, which I actually really liked in hindsight, even though it’s the weirdest place. Then we moved into my mom’s basement, shout out to my nice mom, to finish school and save money for our eventual move across the country. As soon as Jake graduated, like I think it was literally 3 days later (sorry Jake), we boarded a plane to New York City with 5 suitcases and nothing else. We moved to New York so I could get my Master’s in Social Work from NYU and the plan was to live there, on the upper east side, and fulfill my Gossip Girl dreams. (If any of you watch that show.) But what actually happened was it was super hot and humid, people were mean, and our apartment was 400 square feet. Not the ideal situation.
So, my husband landed a job in Connecticut and we moved there after living in New York for the summer. We stayed there for the next year and a half and I commuted once a week into New York for school. I absolutely loved Social Work school and feel it has shaped me in so many ways. I could talk about it for a long time but I suppose I have to insert some religious topics here so I’ll leave it at that!
I am now working as a mental health therapist at two different part time jobs. It’s a weird adjustment and I constantly feel like I don’t know what I’m doing, but it’s busy and fun, so I can’t complain. One of the interesting things about starting a career as a therapist, is the overlap I have seen with topics at church and topics in therapy.
Last week I was struggling with what to talk about. I actually wanted to talk about Heavenly Mother, but didn’t know what to say and figured I would save it for our inevitable talk next year when we move.
Instead, I was thinking about something I talked about with my personal therapist. We were talking about the typical things you talk about in therapy, and she told me about this theory she had heard that all emotions can be broken down to just two: fear and love.
And these two emotions are mutually exclusive. If you have fear, you can not have love. And if you have love, you can not have fear. It was like, a world shattering paradigm shift and I sat there thinking, “Yeah!! That’s such a good way to look at it!” Then when I was getting ready to write this talk, I googled “love and fear” “LDS” and BAM. The topics overlapped, per usual. I found this amazing talk by Elder Uchdorf called “Perfect Love Casteth Out Fear” and I picked out a few parts that I felt were particularly powerful and I’ll read now. He says,
“It is true that fear can have a powerful influence over our actions and behavior. But that influence tends to be temporary and shallow. Fear rarely has the power to change our hearts, and it will never transform us into people who love what is right and who want to obey Heavenly Father.
People who are fearful may say and do the right things, but they do not feel the right things. They often feel helpless and resentful, even angry. Over time these feelings lead to mistrust, defiance, even rebellion.”
I love the way he talks about fear as a motivator and how it can lead to such negative feelings. And I think that’s something we can all relate to. I think often we use fear as a motivator without even realizing it, and then, like me, are shocked when we wind up in a therapist chair and realize how many of our actions that have left us confused and upset come from fear.
He also talks about us trying to use fear to motivate others, but it’s a little gloom and doom so I’ll leave that to you to read in your own time and end with this: He says,
“If we ever find ourselves living in fear or anxiety, or if we ever find that our own words, attitudes, or actions are causing fear in others, I pray with all the strength of my soul that we may become liberated from this fear by the divinely appointed antidote to fear: the pure love of Christ, for “perfect love casteth out fear.”

I love that idea of replacing fear with love, and think it is truly one of the most powerful things we can do. I think out brains often want to get so detailed about all the little things in life, but it sometimes can be as simple as choosing love instead of fear. I know there have been so many things in my own life that would have gone smoother if I would have shifted my thoughts to love instead of wallowing in the “what ifs” and the fear. I know it’s a struggle we will probably always be faced with, but I truly believe that there is power in choosing love over fear, and that it can have a huge effect on our lives and on the lives of those around us. It’s my hope that we can always remember the perfect love Jesus Christ had for us and do our best every day to follow in his footsteps. 

I say these things in the name of Jesus Christ, amen.  

Saturday, September 15, 2018

09.15.18

I honestly can't remember what we did with our Saturday, other than saw A Simple Favor where I feel in love with Blake Lively's hair. Like, in that scene where she first gets out of the car and it's raining? GOALS. I am now on a quest to figure it out. Although my hair is super fine so it's hard to get that like messy/beachy texture. But, if you know of any good products, lemme know!

I took this picture for the therapy Instagram lol. I am so awkward on it but I guess it helps or something so I'll keep doing it. I am going to be expanding it from food/body image concern type posts to general things like anxiety, depression, etc. I also want to do more feminism/social work type posts. I still really want to work in social policy after I get fully licensed. 

XOXO
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Friday, September 14, 2018

09.14.18

I made it through my last day of work before my trip! Yay!

Also, let's talk briefly about the weighted blanket fiasco of 2018. So, there is this great Instagram called @b.afewofmyfavoritethings. She basically posts deals and things she finds that she likes. She found these weighted blankets on mega sale (2 for $75) because the company is going out of business. Normally, they are like $200. 

So, they all sold out. And then they were going to be getting more on Friday at 5:00. I was planning on getting there at like 4:45 so I could ensure I got one. BUT THEY GOT THERE EARLY. So, I left work as soon as I could and drove through rush hour traffic. 

Turns out, right as I left they sold out FML. So, I was like bummed but whatever, moved on. Then, later that night out of curiosity I looked them up on Facebook Marketplace to see if anyone was selling them cheaper than $200. Turns out, some assholes bought like 10 of them and were reselling them with a $30-$40 markup!! Anyway, I messaged one of the girls and offered her $50, but she wouldn't. She was like, "Good luck finding anything for less than $65. Of the 10 we bought, we only have 2 left."

It's like, let me get this right. These blankets were created for people with sensory issues, then expanded to anxiety. However, most people can't afford $200 blankets... so when they go on mega sale, instead of people who actually need them being able to get them, some douche bags bought up like 10+ to resell for profit??

I guess I have nothing left to say other than, get a real job? Or resell something that isn't used for therapeutic reasons??? Ugh. 

Anyway, I was talking about this on my Instagram and it turns out someone has an extra one that her aunt is bringing over from California that she will let me buy at cost!! THERE ARE GOOD PEOPLE IN THIS WORLD!! I had really bad anxiety this weekend but will talk about it more in later posts!

We went to In N Out and I officially decided I don't like their hamburgers. Like I would way rather eat a $1 cheeseburger from McDonald's, I kid you not. The fries were old too? But they did have a "puppy patty" that was super cute to give Tucker lol. 




Anddddd then our car died lol. We tried to jump it and it wouldn't work. So we just sat there for a few minutes and then I was like, "Let's try again" and it started! Ugh! I think it just overheats and then has trouble starting, but it's still way annoying. Needless to say, if we do end up moving to Arizona or Texas we are going to lease cars with BAMF air conditioning systems lol. 


XOXO
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Thursday, September 13, 2018

09.13.18

I have started opening the blinds for Tucker in the morning and he just gazes out the window while I get ready lol. It's so cute. 



I am writing this a few days after the fact and can't really remember much of what happened. But I will take this opportunity to do a rant. I apologize to the number of my friends who have already heard this lol, but I am interested to hear more opinions!

Long story short I follow this mega influencer who started a side company, but it is a "community for homemakers". This bothers me mainly because I feel like she is in a really great position to encourage young girls to explore like, STEM careers or something. For the record, I have nothing against homemakers, I just feel it is more a lifestyle that is great if it happens, but it shouldn't be aspired to. I believe a lot in women being self-sufficient and being able to comfortably support themselves and their children. It's nice to assume like your man will be there but the reality is death, divorce, or impairment happen? 

Anyway, so I am mostly just annoyed that she has this cool platform to inspire young girls but isn't necessarily using it for that advantage?

Once again, not saying homemakers are bad or whatever, just that it's a very privileged place to be at and the reality is a lot of women (if not most) have to work while they have children. It's like, seize the opportunity to be a homemaker if it comes up, but have a backup career that can be used if ever needed.

ANYWAY. Rant over. I hope that wasn't offensive to anyone. I am a strong believe in backups and being self-sufficient! I hate the fact that some women stay in unhealthy relationships because of the economic hardships they would face if they left. It's such a tough situation so many women find themselves in, and I think if you are in a place to avoid it (or in this blogger's case, encourage others to avoid it) like, why not? 


In other news, Tucker has been getting better at laying with me on the couch. He still requires I constantly pet him, but hey! I'll take it!

Tuesday, September 11, 2018

09.12.2018


I wrote all this in a different order than it happened, so I am just going to copy paste it in the right order and hopefully it makes sense lol. My day started at 9:00 with therapy!

Ok so I cried last week and was nervous we would continue that same discussion today, but we actually talked about other things and I felt hella validated so it was good. We talked about 2 things that I thought were neat and wanted to share:

Neat thing #1: Inner Hollowness
We were talking about how there is hollowness we sometimes feel inside of ourselves, not being "enough" you could say. We try to fill it with people, things, experiences, etc. So we spend all this time trying to have a lot of friends, find true love, make a lot of money, travel the world, etc. But then that leads us to neat thing #2...

Neat thing #2: Sometimes we don't really want what we think we want.
We think we want something, but then we get it and are like "eh".

So basically, the only thing that's going to fill that hollowness inside of us, is ourselves. Not our husbands, or kids, or friends, or money, or mansion, or designer clothes, or trips around the globe.

Just ourselves.

Crazy, huh? Idk. I just really loved that. Oh wait, I just remembered there was a 3rd neat thing we talked about:

Neat thing #3: All emotions can be boiled down to fear and love.
I found the quote so I'll put it here:

“There are only two emotions: love and fear. All positive emotions come from love, all negative emotions from fear. From love flows happiness, contentment, peace, and joy. From fear comes anger, hate, anxiety and guilt. It's true that there are only two primary emotions, love and fear. But it's more accurate to say that there is only love or fear, for we cannot feel these two emotions together, at exactly the same time. They're opposites. If we're in fear, we are not in a place of love. When we're in a place of love, we cannot be in a place of fear.” -Elisabeth Kubler Ros

I think it's a really cool idea. Anyway, we talk a lot about cool things and I feel like they are life changing so I will continue to share them here. Go to therapy, kids! It's worth it!


I also went to Trader Joe's and bought so much good food (I'll post it on my food instagram), and shipped a print for Tiny Tuna. It is impossible for me to leave Trader Joe's without flowers. They are only $4! It's such a good deal!


Next, I got my eyelash extensions done (will talk about later) and came home to see this praying mantis on our garage door. It was SO WEIRD. A few days ago it literally flew into our house and we trapped it in a mason jar and put it outside. The next day, I was going to the back door and it was sitting on the arm rail by the door. And then today, it was on the garage!! Too many times to be a coincidence! So I googled what the symbolism is behind them and this is what I found:

"The mantis comes to us when we need peace, quiet and calm in our lives.
Usually the mantis makes an appearance when we’ve flooded our lives with so much business, activity, or chaos that we can no longer hear the still small voice within us because of the external din we’ve created."

Sounds pretty accurate to me!!!


Jasmine rice, tandoori naan, and Thai yellow curry sauce all from Trader Joe's and delish. I can't say I'm 100% sold on the curry sauce over potential others. If you have a favorite, let me know what and where! 


I got new eyelash extensions today (which I am obsessed with, by they way). The girl was telling me how you can tell if someone is on their period by looking at their eyelashes because they are at different stages in the growth process during different life events, like periods, miscarriages, stress, etc.

I went to the eye doctor the other day and they took a picture of THE BACK OF MY EYE. Like, they could do that! The doctor was all nonchalantly looking at it and point things out and I was just in shock that it took them less than 2 seconds to get a picture of the back of my eye.

Things are so crazy, if you really think about them. Like our bodies are C.R.A.Z.Y. I always think about the human body as just like one collective thing that functions. But it's like... so many little parts?

SCIENCE.

It just freakin' blows my mind, man. Our bodies are soooo many little parts all functioning together to create this whole thing. I don't know. It's just shocking me lately.


And now I'm at work! Writing this during a no show haha. Anyway, it's a busy day! I'll leave here tonight at 9:00pm FML. I need to get my work schedule under control because these 45 hour work weeks DO NOT WORK FOR ME. But it's ok because I am off on a trip next week!

Yay!

XOXO
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Monday, September 10, 2018

9.11.2018


Today was good! I basically just worked all day. I originally was going to be gone all day (like leave my house at 7:00am and get home at 8:30pm) but I got sick and didn't go to the church thing they had tonight. I did make the cookies though so I consider myself a good contributor? Lol. 

I made another sale on my Etsy! It is that same Dwight "idiot" quote that everyone is buying lol. But hey, works for me! It's always funny to see what artz people choose, because it's so different from what I would choose most of the time. Anyway, at this point I am putting 100% of what I make from it back into it with promoted listings. I have 11 sales so far, but only 1 review. So hopefully once I get more reviews I can show up in searches without having to pay to advertise! Anyway, it has been good and I am glad it isn't a complete failure. I really want to do some farmer's markets and craft fairs, so we'll see! I want to do some daily deals sites too, but they are so picky and also I feel like downloadable is a thing now? But I feel such possessor-ship over my prints and would be LIVID if someone reprinted my stuff commercially. Idk. I am paranoid, ok. 

Anyway, this daily journal thing has been fun. Although I am really feeling like I need to turn this blog private, just because I don't want to worry about anyone seeing anything who isn't meant to see it, ya know? I just want to let the juices flow and not be worried! I'm going to go look it up right now.

XOXO
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09.10.2018

Today was good! I worked until 4 and then came home and spent hours making cookies for a church thing tomorrow. I was so mad; I got all the way to the end of the recipe and was missing a second cup of chocolate chips so we had to run to the store! There is a kid at the store I shop at who always comments on my organic items as he scans them lol. Last time I was there I got organic cleaning supplies and he was like, "Organic cleaners, huh??" And then today I got cage free eggs and he sang "or-gan-ic eggssssss" as he scanned them lmao. Idk what's up but it brings a smile to my face.

Speaking of faces, J got glasses! It only took 5 years! And a company paid for HSA card! So far so good! I am excited for this new time of life lol. 


You have probably noticed I have stopped doing the weekly happy lists, just because I am busy and idk it's not like, a priority for me anymore. But that doesn't mean I am not still noticing things! One from today was when I bought new toilet paper and saw J had stacked it in a tier on top of the toilet lol. 


We watched Dexter again which is fun! I stopped watching after you know who died, but am interested in it again so we'll see how long it lasts! Speaking of tv, I haven't been watching that much lately because everything sucks? But I still have to finish Bachelor in Paradise and also a new season of Atypical is on, so that will be good. I feel like I have not heard anything about American Horror Story coming back?? But I liked those so hopefully it does! Castle Rock is good too, actually. Idk. So many shows are good but then get so boring so it's hard to like, keep a good one. 

ANYWAY. 

XOXO
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Sunday, September 9, 2018

Weekend Scenes

It's so funny to compare the photos I take now vs when I was super blogger-y. Mostly now they are for my food Instagram lmao. 

Anyway, Friday night my mom came up to Salt Lake and we ate at Even Steven's sandwiches. I got the jackfruit torta and she got the roast beef dip. Mine was okay, but her's was a lot better lol. Idk why, but I have been noticing after I eat meat I feel super heavy and bloated and just bleck. So I might go back to being more vegetarian than I have been lately. I don't make meat at my house, but if I go out to eat I'll usually get meat dishes. But then I just feel bleck afterward so it's not the best lol. 

We got ice cream at Nielsen's Frozen Custard which is good but also melts so fast? I keep getting the concretes tho so maybe I need to try something else. We went to Nordstrom Rack and they had so much cute stuff I wanted to buy! J's car broke last week and they estimated it will cost $1200 to fix lol so I am really not letting myself buy things right now. But I did get a black sweater that I need for Europe to complete an outfit, so I was excited about that. I actually found a hole in it and need to take it back, now that I think about it... 


Saturday was super fun! My friend, Riley, had a little craft day where we made cute banners! Someone brought a seven layer dip, and I have just always assumed I don't like seven layer dip, but I decided to try it and it was SO GOOD. I am craving it right now! 


After crafting Saturday, we went up Provo Canyon to get some family pictures taken! Is it a family if it's just me and J??? I often feel it is not lol, but I need to get more in the habit of calling us that, because we are! Anyway, we shot with Brolin Taylor and he was such a comfortable person to shoot with! Would definitely recommend. We were laughing so much haha. 

Afterward, we went to 180 Tacos and were all jazzed. I went up all ready to order the Korean tofu tacos and THEY DON'T HAVE THEM A NYMORE. So I got the falafel (not good) and the Korean pork (okay). We got the malasadas too that were not as good as we remembered them being? They were a little crispy and didn't have a lot of sauce. Anyway, needless to say I was really disappointed! At this point both 180 Tacos and CupBop have gotten rid of my favorite tofu dishes! Now I am left going to PF Changs! 


I am writing this on Sunday night. Today I went to all of church (where is my medal???) and also stayed after for an hour to plan activities for the relief society. My calling is a activity planner for the relief society lmao. This week we are doing canning, so tomorrow I am going to make 3 dozen chocolate chip pumpkin cookies using the teacher lady's canned pumpkin for the activity on Tuesday. If my church calling is just me planning fun activities and baking, I'll take it!!

Afterward I went to my mom's house where we mass made this soup recipe that is so delish! We are going to freeze it with some dinner rolls for a quick, yummy dinner! 

I have been super busy with both my part time jobs. Like, 40-50 hours per week busy. It is good, but also if I don't have a free weekend day to catch up on cleaning, errands, etc. I get really stressed! OR if I work like a 10 hour day and then come home and have to spend an hour making good food, or we don't have any good food, I get really grouchy lol. I always tell J I am like a "foodie Sim" and if I only eat low quality food my happiness decreases lol. So, I am excited to have some quick soup dinners! I am going to go to Trader Joe's and get some curry sauce and frozen naan too! If you have quick, vegetarian dinners let me know. I am always on the hunt. 


This model pic of Tucker is from our walk after mass making soup! There are sunflowers everywhere and I love it! 

This coming week is really busy! But then I am off to Europe next week, so it is good fuel to get me through! 

XOXO
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