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Saturday, September 30, 2017

J.C. Appreciation Post

Just stopping by to post these cute pictures of J and Tucker. I was taking too long to get into the car, and when I came down I saw J scrolling through these photos choosing one to post on Instagram lol. Tucker is very annoying and a lot of times we hate him, but looks like J is becoming a proud dog dad after all lol. 

Friday, September 29, 2017

New York City Guide

What to eat:
So these are just my favorite snippets from each place. If I didn't post something, it doesn't mean it wasn't good. I just didn't want to list a million things for each place. Also, it's organized by neighborhood. I put everything in each neighborhood so you don't have to google addresses, so you may notice some repeats.

Lower Manhattan
  • Chobani - Beautiful inside. Really good yogurt parfaits.
  • By Chloe - Quinoa taco salad!! My favorite salad in all of New York City! The fries are good too. Also everything here is vegan or vegetarian. The packaging and atmosphere is so cute too!
  • Mamoun's - Cash only. Really good hummus and pita bread. (Cheap too!) Quick bite, limited seating inside. 
  • Crif Dogs - Total college vibes haha. Really good hot dogs! They have a vegetarian "fake" hot dog too that's amazing. 
  • Sweetgreen - Anything. Just... anything. 
  • Shake Shack - Portobello burger. Fries. Chicken sandwich... basically anything and everything. 
  • Ilili Box - The Phoenician fries! 
  • Prince Street Pizza - My husband's FAVORITE pizza in all of New York City. Limited seating. 
  • Sweet Chick - My favorite dinner in all of New York City! Vegetarian chicken and waffles!
  • Spaghetti Incident - Carbonera! Waiter service. Also can get it to go in a cone. 
  • Rice to riches - Really good rice pudding!
  • Georgetown Cupcake - Salted caramel cupcake, vanilla birthday cake, red velvet, chocolate vanilla... basically anything.
  • Momfuku Milk Bar - Crack pie. SO GOOD. 
  • Dough - Really good donuts! The Nutella filled is my favorite. 
  • Magnolia Bakery - Bread pudding
  • Cookie Dō NYC - Cookie dough! You can get it in a cone. They have vegan flavors, too. Super cute inside. My favorite is the chocolate chip or unicorn. 
  • Doughnut Plant - Brooklyn blackout, lavender. 
  • The Donut Pub - Chocolate dipper donut. Also right across the street is a street art piece by Invader.
  • Amorino - Gelato in the shape of a flower! You can add a macaron to it too. 
  • The City Bakery - Pretzel croissant! One of my very favorite foods in New York City. You can also get them at some Birdbath Bakeries. 
  • City Kitchen - A place with a bunch of different mini restaurants and a bunch tables in the middle. You can get Dough donuts here, also Ili Box Phoenician fries (the best). Great views of Times Square. 
  • Food Gallery Thirty Two - A Korean cafeteria type place (similar to City Kitchen) with a bunch of little food places you can choose from. My favorite is Kobeque which has Korean BBQ. 
  • Sweetgreen - Once again... anything. 
  • Shake Shack - Portobello burger. Fries. Chicken sandwich... basically anything and everything. 
  • Momfuku Milk Bar - Crack pie. SO GOOD. 
  • Nutella Bar - Waffles with strawberries and Nutella! Basically this place is alllllll things Nutella and just fun to visit.
  • Magnolia Bakery - Bread pudding.
  • Sugar Factory - This is the place with those "smoking" drinks you see all over Instagram. They are expensive, but VERY worth it! You can easily share it between 4-5 people. My mom and I barely drank 1/3 of ours. Also you'll sit in the window to drink it and a billion people will stop and take a picture of it (and you). Especially after they pour the dry ice in and it starts foaming. 
  • Dough - Really good donuts! The Nutella filled is my favorite. 
  • Amorino - Gelato in the shape of a flower! You can add a macaron to it too. (Be forewarned, aesthetics aren't always the employee's top priority.
West Side
  • Pushcart Coffee - Nutella hot chocolate. My fave! Then sit in the window and people watch. 
  • Jacob's Pickles - Their French toast is my favorite breakfast in all of New York City. Also the homemade root beers are so good. Waiter service. Get there right when they open to avoid lines. 
  • Num Pang Sandwich Shop - My husband never gives food 10/10, but he gave their pork sandwich a 10/10! *gasps*
  • Sweetgreen - Anything. 
  • Shake Shack - Portobello burger. Fries. Chicken sandwich... basically anything and everything. 
  • Momfuku Milk Bar - Crack pie. SO GOOD. 
  • Treat House - Cookie dough Rice Krispie ice cream sandwich.
  • Levain Bakery - Chocolate peanut butter cookie and the chocolate chip cookie are the best! It's considerably less crowded on week days. Also limited seating inside. 
  • People's Pops - Literal shaved ice. Cash only. Nice, cold bite while walking The High Line. 
  • Doughnut Plant - Brooklyn blackout, lavender. 
  • Magnolia Bakery - Bread pudding.
  • L'Art De Gelato - All the flavors are good!
  • Ample Hills Creamery - Ooey Gooey Butter Cake Ice Cream! Still dreaming about it. 
East Side
  • Pick A Bagel - Best black and white cookies! Also really good bagels, egg and cheese sandwiches, and hot chocolate. 
  • The Coffee Bean and Tea Leaf Coffee Shop - Blended chocolate! Basically a frozen chocolate drink that is so so good in the summer when it's a million degrees. 
  • Irving Farm Coffee Roasters - Vanilla and lavender donut. 
  • Grace's Marketplace Coffee Shop - They sell Dough donuts here if you can't make it to a standalone store! Limited seating but if you can snag the seat in the window, it's so fun to watch the Upper East Siders go by. 
  • Naruto Ramen - Really good ramen! Limited seating. 
  • Sashimi Express - The tiniest and yummiest sushi rolls. The $9 for 3 rolls deal will feed one person. Also good bubble tea! Limited seating, but they do have a bench outside. 
  • Chop't - I love this place because of their lettuce size. All salads are good. 
  • Sweetgreen - How many times do I have to say, ANYTHING.
  • My Pie Pizzeria - So many vegetarian options! Also the crust is made without sugar if that's what you're into. Limited seating. 
  • Shake Shack - Portobello burger. Fries. Chicken sandwich... basically anything and everything. 
  • Calexico - SUCH good Mexican food. Tofu tacos with mango, good guacamole, and soft tortillas that are to die for. Waiter service. 
  • Blockheads - Tofu soft shell tacos, chips and salsa. 
  • MacarOn Cafe - Super yummy macarons! Also super cute on the inside. Also good grab and go sandwiches for having a picnic at Central Park. 
  • Candle Cafe - Really yummy vegetarian food. Veggie BLT. Waiter service. 
  • Cupcake ATM - You gotta get a cupcake out of an ATM! Obligatory Instagram picture, too. ;)
  • Treat House - Cookie dough Rice Krispie ice cream sandwich.
  • Max Brenner - Chocolate pizza!! This is my favorite dessert in all of New York City. I get it with chocolate, marshmallows, peanut butter, and krispies. You can order this without having to sit down! Also they have good hot chocolate. 
  • Union Fare - Confetti croissant! Also the cookies and cream croissant... basically any of their specialty croissants. 
  • FP Patisserie - Really good macarons! In the summer they do a macaron ice cream sandwich that is also very good. 
  • Two Little Red Hens - "New York Style" cheesecake.
  • Baked By Melissa - Cutest mini cupcakes and macarons! My favorites have been the snickerdoodle and cookie dough macaron. My favorite cupcake is the Tie Dye. 
  • Morton Williams Grocery Store - They sell Cookie Dough Cafe here!
  • Sweetgreen - A.N.Y.T.H.I.N.G. 
  • Shake Shack - Portobello burger. Fries. Chicken sandwich... basically anything and everything. 
  • Juliana's Pizza - Best pizza, in my opinion. My husband loves Prince Street Pizza. 
  • Ample Hills Creamery - Ooey Gooey Butter Cake Ice Cream! Still dreaming about it. 
  • Vanessa's Dumpling House - So cheap and so good! Pork and chive dumplings ($1.25), veggie dumplings ($2.75) and sesame pancakes ($1). 
  • Momfuku Milk Bar - Crack pie. SO GOOD. 
  • Doughnut Plant - Brooklyn blackout, lavender. 
  • Dough - Really good donuts! The Nutella filled is my favorite. 

What to do:
  • Carl Schurz Park - Nice to get a little treat from Two Red Hens and hang out at the park. Lots of dogs. Lots of nice views of the river. 
  • The High Line - Super fun to walk this from start to end! Lots of art and treats along the way. Lots of nice views of Chelsea and the river as well. 
  • Belvedere Castle - Cool to see and explore while wandering around Central Park.
  • Bryant Park - Ice skating in the winter, pretty in the summer. They do a lot of events here too. Oh, and there is a carousel. 
  • The Metropolitan Museum of Art - So many good things! Also you can pay what you want to get in, so it's nice if you don't have a lot to spend. Make sure you go to the rooftop! Also you can eat on the steps and bring out your inner Gossip Girl. 
  • Washington Square Park - See the arch and the fountain. Sometimes people play instruments and it's amazing. Lots of college kids because it's right next to NYU. 
  • Bethesda Terrace - Nice stop while walking through Central Park. 
  • Brooklyn Heights Promenade - Cool installation art. Walk from start to finish (if it's not too hot/cold!) Good snacks along the way. Beautiful views of the bridge and Manhattan. 
  • Sheep Meadow - Beautiful views of the high rises along side Central Park. V common place for pictures. 
  • Conservatory Water - My favorite place to go when we lived in NYC. It's an off leash dog area in the morning (which is fun to see). Can sit and watch people play with sailboats. 
  • Chelsea Market - Those amazing light pictures you see all over Instagram. Good shopping and eating. 
  • Gansevoort Market - Another cute market like Chelsea Market. 
  • Union Square Market - Pretty flowers, maple candy, Christmas markets... Just fun markets in general that are nice to stroll through. 
  • The Met Bruer - Another museum where you pay what you can to get in. They have a lot cooler pieces here than they do at The Met (in my opinion). 
  • Flying Tiger - This is a store like Ikea, but better. It's Scandinavian and so cute! They have a lot of cheap houseware? Like smaller things, so cups, coloring books, office supplies, etc. I just got the cutest plaid blanket from there yesterday for $10! Must visit if you like Scandinavian style. 

Where to stay:
  • Row NYC - Super close to a lot of Broadway shows! Rooms are super cute and the staff is really nice. They upgraded us last time we were there and also let us drop our backpacks off before check in so we could explore the city without a lot of baggage. 
  • Marriot Marquis - Also close to the broadway plays. Really neat pod elevators that are just... futuristic and amazing. 
  • Lexington Hotel - SO SO beautiful inside.
  • Pierre Hotel - Everyone should stay in a hotel overlooking Central Park on the Upper East Side at least once.
  • Luma Hotel - Super close to Bryant Park (one of my favorites) and super pretty inside. Close to broadway plays as well. 
  • St. Regis - If you're going to treat yourself, this is the way to do it. 
What do you think? Did I miss anything?

Tuesday, September 26, 2017

Actual Advice Of How To Increase Your Blog Traffic By 25%

These posts are everywhere and are usually pretty unhelpful. BUT I DISCOVERED SOMETHING GREAT!!

So basically a while ago I learned about how Pinterest is like a search engine, not necessarily social media. So basically if you tie it back to your website (aka pin from your website) that's the best way to get traffic. This is backed up by A LOT of bloggers. I can't remember when she said it, but I'm pretty sure Amber Fillerup said that's how she got "discovered" or whatever.

ANYWAY. But how annoying is it to have to pin everything? Like, so annoying. 


So basically you go to the site you want to pin from. You click the button you have added in your bookmarks, and it pops up with all the images on the page and lets you choose which ones you want to pin. 

Then you choose what board, add a description, and can change the link if you want. It's super nice because if all your pictures are going on travel, you can just apply that to all the pictures and you're done! 

The other really cool thing is you can hook up your Google Analytics and see when the best times are for your pins. Then when you select what you want to pin, you just say "add to queue" and it adds it to those "best time" slots. 

This is what it looks like! So you can see what is queuing up!

Anyway, I'm not being paid to post this or anything. I just genuinely like it. AND if your'e not convinced to do the free trial yet, LOOK AT HOW MUCH MY TRAFFIC INCREASED!

19% more traffic the past 3 weeks! So if that trend keeps going I'll see 25% more traffic in a month. Pretty worth it in my opinion. 

Anyway, do the free trial and lemme know how you like it! 

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Monday, September 25, 2017

A Happy List: 171

1/ Indie films! I am working on a list of the best indie films on Netflix right now. But if you have any recommendations, let me know!

2/ Whole Foods. If I ever have a lot of money, this is 100% where I would shop. It's the only place I know of that sells my favorite fake burger, Beyond Meat! I am making McDonald's (shut up they are the best hamburger) hamburgers tomorrow and am excited to see if they taste similar haha.

3/ When people tell us how cute Tucker is and I am like, "Thanks!" even though that doesn't make sense as an answer.

4/ Walking around the lake by our house in the mornings. It is so peaceful, but there are still occasional people so you don't feel like you are going to get murdered. 

5/ How cheap basil plants are. I don't know why anyone would use dried basil! (Keeping basil plants alive is another story.)

6/ I had sweet and sour cauliflower Friday night and it tasted like what I imagine vegan wings would taste like. SO GOOD. I need to replicate the recipe. 

7/ When Tucker licks my hand really slow and stops for a second mid-lick.

8/ Finding out there is an Aldi really close to my work, so I can shop on my lunch break now. 

9/ Having clear skin for the first time in forever! I finally found the perfect skin care routine. If I stray from it I break out! But if I stick to it exactly, I have 0 acne.

10/ I am reading The Lovely Bones right now and it is seriously so good! I love the way heaven is portrayed and have always imagined it to be something similar. 


Here are some funny things people said this week:

Me:  Should I cut up an apple and we can have caramel apples on the way there?!?!
J: Sure!!! But you can just have all of it.

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Tokyo Travel Guide

Where to eat:

  • Shabu shabu
  • City Bakery: Pretzel croissant. Chocolate chip scone. 
  • Tonkatsu Maisen: fried pork with rice. 
  • Drink vending machines: Hot chocolate, white grape juice with aloe chunks. 
  • Ippudo Ramen: Can have them add more noodles. 
  • Noa Cafe
  • Totti Factory cotton candy
  • Kaiten sushi
  • Okinomiyaki
  • Max Brenner

What to do:

  • Memorial park: super pretty. 
  • LDS temple
  • Shibuya croissant: Starbuck's for cool views. 
  • Meiji shrine
  • Hachiko
  • Harajuku: Takeshita street.
  • Shop at Daiso
  • Ginza: Really expensive but pretty
  • Disneyland: Alien mochi (at the New York Delicatessen), flavored popcorns, pork sticks. 
  • Get chopsticks with your name engraved
  • Akihabara: video game district
  • Skytree
  • Asakusa: Souvenirs and temple. Bean curd pastries. 
  • Purikura photo booth 

Where to stay:

  • JW Marriot Tokyo

Sunday, September 24, 2017

Weekend Links

I am constantly shouting this from the rooftops, but it's because IT'S IMPORTANT!!! 

I'm curious to see if anyone has tried this and if it works? I am worried it would absorb the smell of strong foods and transfer it to other foods? Let me know. 


Haha I loved this. My new philosophy is to go with whatever I'm craving, but try to stick with vegetarian for the most part. So if can sub for fake meat, I do. If I can't, I don't. Another cool idea I've heard is just eating vegetarian for certain days of the week. Or, if you can, just buy free range meat/eggs/milk, so you're not supporting a horrible industry!

I didn't hear anything about this in the media. I'm curious, what do you guys think about it and why do you think we didn't hear about it a lot??

Omg I always think about this and wonder what it says about my personality!! Because Tucker and Trixie are very different. But I do think Trixie is like my mom, so maybe there is some truth.

I am not in the mommy blogger world as much these days, but I still can't help but to giggle at these videos.

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Saturday, September 23, 2017

Becoming My True Self

I have never been a pie person before, but I was at a dinner party a few weeks ago and had strawberry rhubarb pie for the first time and it was SO GOOD. I asked for the recipe, made my own, and between me and J we ate almost the entire thing! #killinit

I just got back from Whole Foods and am going to make two little strawberry rhubarb pies, a little apple pie, and a little quiche! I bought a set of 4 miniature pie tins on Amazon before discovering the CUTEST pie tin at Target. I was going to return the mini ones but the shipping was going to cost me almost as much as they cost, so I just decided to keep them. 

If I was a millionaire I would live my life the same, except I would grocery shop at Whole Foods and drive a Tesla. Ok and I would obviously travel more. But I would still just want one car, and a house no more than 3,000 square feet, and to shop at Asian fashion sites. 

ALSO! Is anyone else watching American Vandal on Netflix? I was laughing to myself because I totally thought it was a real documentary for the first few episodes. This is funny if you know what it's about. Also I am watching Seeking a Friend for the End of the World right now and it's so cute. A MUST WATCH. I love indie films. Another very good one is Safety Not Guaranteed. 

When I am an old lady I want to have really long hair. I want it to be either white, or if teenagers still like dying hair, I'll hire one to dye it cool colors like lavender and pink. And then I am going to bake all day and give treats to the neighbors. And everyone will know me as that old lady with lavender hair who bakes pies. I'm really excited. Especially now that I have discovered my first pie recipe. 

The future is bright, folks!

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Thursday, September 21, 2017

Morning Walks With My Dog Child

Getting back into every day, normal, creative challenge shooting has been so fun! I met up with a new friend in New York yesterday and we just shot around and bounced ideas off of each other. It inspired me to take my camera with me on my walk with Tucker this morning.

I take him out for an hour each morning so he will be *hopefully* less bored while we are gone all day. This morning I took him to Lake Mohegan, which has a little dog friendly part. We tried to take him there when all the dogs were there and he was NOT READY for that hahaha. He totally ran away and J had to chase him down. So my theory is: If I take him there when it isn't really busy, it won't be as new and exciting (aka distracting) when we go there for swim time.

He did ok this time, but it does get frustrating when your dog who knows all his commands at home gets into a new environment and disobeys everything! UGH!

But alas. We will keep training him! I have strong thoughts on training your dog, but I can definitely see why people give up. It's hard work! If we had a backyard I could throw him in, maybe I wouldn't be as good about it haha.

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Monday, September 18, 2017

A Happy List: 170

1/ When Tucker tucks his feet under his body and looks like a bread loaf. 

2/ I was in New York and the temperature was absolutely perfect. Not too hot, not too cold. My last class got canceled so I decided to get pizza before catching the train home. So, here I am. In the most perfect weather. In the most perfect city. With a pizza in my right hand and a soda in my left. I was thinking about how it was such a perfect moment and right then You Are The Ocean came on my headphones (my favorite song). And I was just in awe at how perfect that moment was.

3/ We made both these recipes yesterday and they were so good. I love when random online recipes turn out! 

4/ J and Tucker had been waiting for me in the car. When I finally got in, J was posting a selfie with Tucker to Instagram lol!

5/ I have an office! It may be in a basement and shared with someone else, but hey. Still a step up!

6/ Seeing a Leonberger. Flippin' majestic.

7/ Teaching Tucker how to play hide and seek.

8/ Getting back into photography! I can never decide if I want social media to be my side hustle (as J and I call it) or if I want to do photography. Well, I think a more accurate way to phrase it is: I would rather do photography as a side job, but I feel like I get booked more with social media campaigns. Anyway, if you're in New York and need a photographer, check me out

9/ Getting my order from Romwe even though I am an idiot and keep putting the wrong zip code. If you haven't already, check out what I got

10/ I have just been thinking a lot lately about time. When I think about how I have 8 months of school left, it still seems like a long time. But then I break it down by what trips and breaks are coming up, and it actually seems like it's going fast! This semester we have Vermont, Harry Potter World, Ireland, and then Christmas and Thanksgiving break. So like, all of that will make it go by really fast! And then after that it's my last semester, which I feel like will naturally go by fast, even though we have nothing exciting planned during that semester. 

Anyway! I'm trying to live more in the moment and not obsess about moving to Portland (because like, we've never even been there and who knows if we will be able to find jobs and make it happen). So looking forward to the trip/break that's coming up has been helping me to be more present... even though it's still not being entirely present lol. 

Oh well! Sometimes you just gotta keep crawling through life looking toward the future or you'll never make it hahaha. And with the grad school load I've got, that's all I can do!

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Best Indie Films On Netflix

The Most Hated Woman In America: Ok, so I didn't LOVE this one, but it is really interesting to watch and consider the ways religion is intertwined in the United States. One part about it I really like was when she asked them what they would do if they were required to say Islam prayers, instead of Christian. It gets you thinking about exactly what religious freedom means, and how it should look.

Liberal Arts: This had some good lolz. There were definitely scenes that were cringy, but overall it was a good watch that made me laugh a lot.

Begin Again: I actually really liked this one! I didn't realize the guy in it was Adam Levine until he started signing lol. #whoops. Anyway, it has some well known actors and actresses and the music is actually really good. Also how can you not love movies set in New York City??

7 Years
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Sunday, September 17, 2017

Romwe Clothing Haul!!

So, I love Asian clothing websites. I have been shopping them from way back when you had to pay a million dollars in shipping so you had to order like $200 to make it worth it lol. Needless to say, websites like Romwe change the game! Asian clothing prices with regular shipping? YES PLEASE. I ordered once from them to test it out, and loved everything so much I placed a second order. These are my favorites from the two orders!

10/10 would recommend shopping through them if you're in college and/or trying to save money but still wanna look fly. :)

1. $5. I am obsessed with the color of this! It is a nice, thick material too. I feel my most Jessica Day when I wear it lol. Buy it here.  

2. $5. So I have been LIVING in this! It fits the bust well but is so cute and flowy. V bohemian. V cute. Buy it here

3. $5. This is so cute and loose! It looks so cute tucked into pants.  Buy it here.

 4. This whole outfit was $6! The skirt band stretches and is floor length. WIN X 3. Buy the top here and the skirt here

5. $7. This is a crop top and SO SOFT. Like wear all the time, soft. Buy it here.

 6. $10. Can you ever have too many alien things? The answer is no. Buy it here

7. $7. This another super soft shirt! It's my go to as soon as I come home and change into sweats. Buy it here

8. $8. This is another cute, loose top that looks super cute tucked into jeans. Buy it here

Anddddd, this is what I wore today! The top is thin and lets a lot of air in. (If you live in a humid place like me, this is important haha.) Buy it here.

The skirt is old from Anthropologie. All in all, I am obsessed with Romwe. You can find such good things for under $5, it's crazy! Some tips: Make sure you check the measurement on each item in your cart. I typically wear a small and some of the items I ordered were medium/large. That's actually the only tip! Everything looks like the picture. Shipping is pretty good too! I keep entering the wrong zip code because I am an idiot, and luckily everything has found its way to me in about two weeks each time. So if you did the right address you'd probably be about a week! I honestly feel like the quality of the clothes is what you would find at Forever 21/H&M (and even some of those online boutiques that are so popular these days). So I prefer to just buy them from the source! Lemme know if you guys try them out and what you think!
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Saturday, September 16, 2017

Weekend Links

1/ This Spotify playlist is SO GOOD.

2/ This is probably the most important thing I have ever read. If you are interested in the mental health field, YOU NEED TO READ THIS.


That's all I have for this week! We are watching Baby Driver right now and I can't decide if I like it? I really like the preview, but now that I am watching the actual show I am iffy haha. I feel like Ansel Egort's transition was so strong? Like he went from being a teenage boy in that movie teenagers loved, and now he is a getaway driver? Intense.

Also we went to the store today and J bought red delicious apples and I was like ??? WHO BUYS RED DELICIOUS APPLES!

Oh, and also we went to the dog park and there was a dog there that was literally bigger than me. Here, I'll link a picture. Anyway, it was one of the more magical moments of my life.

I hope you are all having a good weekend! Tucker has been a bit sick today, but hopefully he is better tomorrow because I've got a lot of homework to do.

Also do you ever eat something sweet and it like, hurts your tooth kind of? What is that? I am trying to eat soft licorice but it keeps hurting my left tooth? I haven't been to the dentist in 2 years maybe? Wait no... I went before we moved to New York. Ok, so like a year. BUT YOU GUYS. So I went to the dentist like a year ago, and then I was looking at my teeth with one of those dental mirrors and I saw a brown spot that didn't go away! And I was like, THERE IS NO WAY I HAVE A CAVITY. But then I never went to the dentist to check. So maybe it was a cavity and now it's grown and is making my teeth weirdly sensitive.

Teeth are like, a big deal. Cause like think. They are depreciating over time. My grandma says that when you get older you have to have a retirement fund just for your teeth lol.

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Wednesday, September 13, 2017



I always feel like it's "been a minute" since I've sat down and just typed. Usually when I do I keep those posts as drafts. I publish most of what I write, but some I keep as drafts so when I turn my blog into a book they will be there, but the internet doesn't need to see!

The general feeling I have today is nervousness about life haha. I keep my career stuff vague on here. Actually I usually don't post about it at all. I work with a lot of confidentiality. Event though all my social media is under a different name than I go by in my work, there is always the possibility that some one could find my platforms! So, don't ever think I am not working or liking it, it is just that this isn't the place for that!

I start my new job today and my schedule will be changing. I used to get home at 2:30 but now I will be getting home at 6:30, maybe later. It's just crazy this is the last internship I will have before I graduate and go out into the world! I am hoping so badly that wherever we move to next we will be able to rent a house with a fenced backyard. I feel so bad leaving my pup in the house alone for 7 hours! I mean he is fine and just sleeps, but yeah. A backyard would be nice. I feel like every home I find isn't renovated? I just wish someone in Seattle or Portland had a super cute, renovated home with a fenced backyard and was renting haha. I guess we could find a month to month apartment contract until that happens, but do those even exist anymore?! They always want to lock you down for a year!

In general, I'm getting very exited to be done with school and to move back to the west coast. I'm excited for us to be closer to our works, so we can leave the house at 7:30 and be home by 5:30! (The life!) It's like real life is so close! We can go to Target and buy things! We can go on more trips! We can eat at Olive Garden!! 

It seems like we have been college students forever, so I am so excited to almost be done with it! Real life is so close! Getting through these next two semesters will be tough, but also I think the schedule I have should make it go by fast? I don't know about getting home so late, but having Mondays off means every weekend is a 3 day weekend. And then if Tuesday is hard at work, I know the next day I am going into the city. And then Thursday I can say, "Tomorrow is Friday!" So yeah. I think it's a pretty good setup haha. 

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Tuesday, September 12, 2017



Ugh I start my new schedule today (writing this on Tuesday) and I am nervous for some reason! My old schedule had me interning from 7:30-2:30 and it was so nice because I could come home and have dinner and chill for a bit. My new schedule gives me mornings off and then I'll get home around 6:30.

I don't know. All I want for my life is to have a backyard for my dog while I am at work during the day, and then for me and my husband to both get home at 5:30 haha. ONE DAY!

It's crazy though. I was thinking about it the other day. I remember being in high school and people would ask me what I wanted to be when I grew up and I would tell them "a therapist". At the time I remember it seeming so far away. Like 6 years of school? Bye!

Then I started my undergrad and it was a little bit closer, but still far away. People would ask me what I was studying and I would tell them, "Psychology, with the end goal of being a therapist." And then I would thinking about the process of graduating from undergrad, going to grad school, and working for two years and getting licensed. It seemed so far away at that time, too.

Then I started getting into grad schools and things became a bit more real. We saved $15,000 and moved to New York City. I remember that feeling like a dream. Like, what?? How did we even save that much and move across the country with 6 suitcases? How did we survive in New York for 3 months? And even more importantly: How did we spontaneously move out of the city two days after finding someone to take our contract? And by ourselves!??! Like, that whole time period is just crazy and I can't believe we did all of it. 

And then I started grad school and felt all official and cool for like... two seconds. My first year I still didn't feel like I was in a place where I was close to being a therapist. People would say things and expect me to know what they were talking about, and I was just like ???? But then I'd talk to people outside of the therapy world and realized that I did know a little something. Just a little.

And now here I am, at my last placement before I graduate. My name badge still says "intern" but I am referred to as a clinician. I'm like, "What?? Am I old enough for this?" Like someone will say "Who is your therapist?" And that person will say my name. LIKE WHAT.

Life is just weird, I guess. It's just weird to me that after looking toward this career for so long, I am finally at the point I want to be at. (Well, once I graduate and get licensed then we'll really be talking. But just like, I DID IT! 

First Day Of School

Guys! I had my first day of school on Wednesday! I wish I could say it's my last first day of school, but alas. Only second to last. Anyway, the night before I looked up the train schedule and saw it was leaving at 7:09. So, J and I hopped in the car and got to the train station at 7:05. There was a train there with the doors closing. I was like, "What train is that?? No way it's the 7:09." We decided it was probably a local bound train. But no. YOU GUYS. It was MY TRAIN! Like what kind of public transportation comes EARLY? I mean if you are a train that's early, sit there for five minutes for heaven's sake!! So, I got on a later train. I have slight social anxiety with some things, and the thought of walking in late to my first class on the first day was like NO THANKS. So I kept debating whether or not I should go. I finally decided to just be an adult and do it, so I got on the next train. It was a really pretty ride with all the fog.
Ok, so then I got there and I was about 30 minutes late. The whole class is 2 hours, so I figured I could still get a lot if I went in. IT WAS SO HARD. But literally I just kept going thinking "What's the worst that can happen?" Well, I walked in the class and the only seat was in the front. When I sat down the professor asked me what my name was and then asked if I was ok hahahaha. I was like, "Yeah my train was just late." But like, why you gotta ask if I am ok bro? People are just late sometimes!! Ughhhhh.
It was nice to be back in the city! New York is the prettiest city I kidddddddd you not. I hate living there but LOVE being able to train in. I haven't spent the fall there yet, and I'm excited to explore this year!
As is typical for my life, I missed the train by THREE MINUTES. so I got home about 20 minutes later than I would have otherwise. SMH. But I gotta tell ya, living closer to the city than last year is so nice! I get home at 8:00 instead of 10:00! Moving FTW.

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