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Life Outside Of Utah

Wednesday, September 21, 2016


Hi! 

Sorry if I've already posted this photo. I have this weird thing where I can't post just text and be ok with myself. #problems

I just wanted to jot down a few thoughts about my life outside of Utah so far, for the future me to look back on and reminisc. The feeling I have right now is a good feeling, and I don't ever want to forget it.

I moved to Utah when I was 2 and didn't move out until earlier this year. When I was 16 I started to get this itch to move. It's weird to think of how angsty and depressed I was for all those years, just imagining my life outside of Utah and feeling like it was so far away. And now here I am, all moved out and my thoughts are pretty much what I thought they would be.

It's been weird but good. When we first moved I was panicking about dumb stuff like safety and natural disasters. And I would talk to J like maybe we would move back to Utah. But now that we have been in our New England home for a month or so, I'm feeling a lot more settled.

Utah will always be an important part of my life, but I think it will always be my past. I just can't see myself living there again. I can't pinpoint exactly what it is. The best way I can think to describe it is I just feel like I am free to be myself here. No one and nothing in Utah ever told me I couldn't be myself, but I don't know. It just always felt like I couldn't.

It's weird too, because there are all these little things about Utah that I feel like I did realize were Utah-specific. Like, it's SO safe there. So so so safe. Also there aren't any natural disasters other than that crazy huge earthquake that is supposed to kill everyone. Everything is centered around the freeway pretty much. People are really nice and neighborly. Also it's really clean and new. Like all the trees are so baby because they were literally just planted within like the last ten years haha.

It's just a good place to live! Not for me, but for a lot of people. And now I feel like I can finally understand that.

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Now here I am, living in New England and finally obsessed with where I live. Don't get me wrong, I liked New York for a minute, but here we can afford to live in a luxury building. I'm finally going to the gym. I have my closet room back. We have a door on our bedroom and it's just good.

And we're traveling to all these places just over the weekend and it's so cool to me that everything here is so close. I mean I drove to Boston and back in a day?! Like what is this life I have where I can just wake up, go to Boston, and be home again before 10? And I can take a train into New York City for like an hour and a half? I don't know. It just feels like the world is at my fingertips at last.

I'm just really happy with where we are at. It feels so good to be making our own way and really sealin' the deal as a family unit. Even if we aren't here forever, I am so glad we are here for now. It feels like the perfect place for us to be.

XOXO
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Comments

  1. This warms my heart. So happy for you guys. *tear*

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  2. Gah I love that feeling (and also your hair)! Moving away is so good. I never really had any big problems with Utah, but after we moved away I was able to appreciate certain things about it so much more. Like safety, low cost of living, mountains, etc. Living in other places opens my eyes to things that Utah didn't have that I also love--like huge trees lining every street, Southern accents, old historical sites, and Waffle House. I feel like the more we move around, the more I figure out what I do and don't like so that when we finally pick a place to settle down we'll be better able to pick a location that's perfect for us. I have too many thoughts on this subject so I'll just stop there :) Happy for you!

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  3. Yes exactly! That's how I feel! I want to know what everywhere is like before we choose where to have a house and settle down for sure!

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  4. This post makes me SO happy! When you first said that you were moving to NYC I was literally like: "YESS!". I mean Utah is great, and I love visiting, but I could never in a million years live there. You can tell that you have just been blossoming (is that a weird word...?) recently! :)

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  5. I love this! I am one of those people who really loves Utah ha ha, but I don't mind the idea of living outside it! As long as it was a place where I could go on weekend trips to cool places! I feel like Indiana doesn't have as much of that to offer... Except for Chicago. So, that's nice. Maybe I'll make it to the East Coast one day!

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  6. I feel the exact same way about where I grew up (Portland, Oregon) and where I've lived since I was 19 (D.C.). Portland is great, I guess, but I never truly loved it and I don't EVER want to live there again. I dislike it so much that I only visit if someone pays to fly me and all three of my kids out there and provides me with a place to stay and a car. Seriously. It's just not worth it to me. I get so frustrated and angry on the way out there and turn into a total nightmare before we land and the whole trip just sucks because I hate it.

    D.C. though? OMG AMAZING. I wanted to travel with my 8th grade class on the D.C./NYC trip but couldn't because we were too poor. I don't know what it was about D.C. that drew me in when I was young but I've always been obsessed with the idea of D.C. and now that I live here (well, Northern Virginia, just a few miles outside of the actual city), I'm in love. Been here since Nov. 2005 and still love it. I'm starting to get an itch to move to a climate that's warm year-round and full of ocean and florals. Maybe San Diego or Florida will be next for me!

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  7. Welcome to CT! So glad you love it for the same reasons so many of us do too! If you ever want a tour guide or day trip ideas hit me up!

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  8. I'm glad to know it's not just me! Does D.C. get hurricanes, btw? It's definitely on my list of places to try living but I'm scared TO DEATH of hurricanes.

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  9. NOPE! No hurricanes. We *sometimes* get the leftover dump of rain from hurricanes, but that's legit happened ONE TIME in the nearly 11 years I've lived here. The best thing about here: in the actual city, 85% of stuff to do is FREE. All of the monuments are free to visit (and "open air" so no lines, except for the Washington Monument). ALL of the Smithsonian museums are free (including the botanical gardens and zoo). There are so many parks and small fields and even a little hillside of stairs carved out along the road overlooking the river that you can sit on and read. And a million other cool free things.

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